Details for attending the wake of Ms. Shella Paz

To the PSHS community,

The remains of Ms. Shella Paz will be available for viewing starting at 3:00pm this afternoon, August 31. Then there will be a mass at 6:30pm. She will be at the Zechariah Room, 3rd floor of the St. Peter’s Crematorium along Quezon Ave.

Due to the limitations of space, most guests (especially students) are enjoined to visit tomorrow when she will be transferred to the much larger Philippians room at the 1st floor. No details of a mass tomorrow have been released but you will all be notified accordingly.

On behalf of the social science unit, I would like to express our sympathy to all those who suffer the loss of one our youngest and most promising teachers. Find comfort in knowing that to her final moments, Ms Shella Paz had a light and passion that very few can match. And we, her colleagues, will always be thankful for your deep appreciation of the work she did with so much love and care for every single one of you.

We are all one in showing her our last respects.

Sincerely,
Martin Perez

Maraming Salamat, Shella Paz

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Two memories of Shella Paz stand out for me.

First, we were supposed to be married. In a manner of speaking.

During the wedding of Ivy Samala, it was somehow rigged that she ended up with the flowers and I with the garter. After we landed with each, I was asked to kiss her on the cheek. It was an impossible situation — a roomful of strangers and the full glare of a spotlight. But she made it easy, not because of some attraction, but because she was like a sister to me. I look back at that moment and realize that I couldn’t have asked for someone better to share that incredibly embarrasing moment with. She took it with her usual candor and grace, and it was over before we knew it.

Second is an earlier memory.

Two months into her first year of teaching, I saw her at the canteen eating her lunch alone. She looked distraught and so I couldn’t help but ask her how things were going. “Not too good,” she said. I sat down with her and she began airing out her frustrations about her classes and her teaching style. She wasn’t clicking, she felt. She could do much better, she realized. Then Sir Vlad joined us and together the three of us just spent the lunch hour exchanging stories about teaching and how we’ve learned to deal with tough times.

That moment defined Shella Paz for me — someone who never stopped learning. She always had a new book with her. She always had a new class activity she wanted to try. She would always tease me at the beginning of every school year how much students expect in SS3 because of what they had with me in SS2. I tell her not to worry. “You’ll do better than you think.”

I said that in full confidence, knowing that Shella gave her students something only a person such as her could give — a warm and loving confidence that they too will always be better if they never stopped learning. To many she was an inspiration and a friend. She genuinely cared. She took the time to reach out to those who did not make time to be helped, and she never gave up on the goodness within people. The light of her smile was unique; the fire of her passion is irreplacable.

Without a doubt, there is so much more she could have done. But with death comes new life; moments such as these remind those of us who remain that time is short. Life is fleeting. So we cherish these moments, and we make them last. This is how history is made. And my challenge to her students who grieve — she will always be with you, as long as you remember the lessons you’ve learned and the moments you’ve shared.

Thank you very much, Shella Paz. You have been good. May you be in the Heaven you have sought your whole life for.

P.S. Shella, I know how much you love Coldplay. Here’s a song for you.

Sampaguita Acquaintances and Parternships Made

My class finally had our Acquaintance Party yesterday evening and it was well attended by both students and parents. While we could have enjoyed more time and a cooler venue, the evening did what it had to — begin the school with new acquaintances and partnerships made. Thank you to everyone who came!

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Sampaguita ’12 may be my 4th advisory class and yet one thing I’ve learned over the years is that there really is no one way to be a class adviser. Having been a batch adviser didn’t help either. I began the year with a more professional, business-like approach to my class, but being a class adviser requires being not just a facilitator and teacher, but a counselor and guardian too. It was only when I caught them during a free period and just had an informal conversation about dealing with school stress did we really warm up to each other. We’ll do our best to have more of those moments.

As students, Sampaguita are good and appreciative. I couldn’t ask for a nicer bunch. But they can be too nice (read: quiet). And as they themselves admit, they need to work at working hard. What I hope to impart to them are my own experiences in dealing with stress, failures, and setbacks. All those make us stronger. Pretty soon you’ll realize how you ‘can do everything by doing nothing.’ As Bruce Lee says, “Be like water.” Don’t think — feel!

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I also met with their parents, and throughout the evening I met each one and answered a question they all put to me, “Kamusta na po ang anak ko?” It is an important question to ask, and I made it a point to answer each one as honestly and frankly as I can. One thing I’ve appreciated about PSHS parents is that they fully understand the challenges in front of their children. Nonetheless, they depend on us teachers to explain exactly what those challenges are and what they, as parents, can do to help their child meet those challenges.

One aspect of education which I feel the PSHS has overlooked is maintaining the partnership between school and home. Even without much support or direction from management, I’ve made it a point to keep that link open and alive. Besides the practical realities of our lack of funds and sources, making sure our students learn isn’t just a matter of making sure they do their homework — it’s also about putting away the videogame, making sure they don’t waste their time when they’re online, and teaching them the value of hard work.

Once again, thanks for the very simple and pleasant evening. I look forward to the year ahead. This is just the beginning!

My picks for the 09/10 TV season

It’s almost September! The TV season is upon us!

Here are my picks with updated launch dates. Here’s a wiki page for everyone else. Entries in bold are what I’m really looking forward to.

Mondays

  • Heroes (season 4, volume 5) – September 21
  • How I Met Your Mother (season 5) – September 21
  • The Big Bang Theory (season 3) – September 21

Tuesdays

  • V (season 1) – November 3

Wednesdays

  • Gary Unmarried (season 2) – September 23

Thursdays

  • Fringe (season 2) – September 17
  • Flashforward (season 1) – September 24
  • The Mentalist (season 2) – September 24
  • 30 Rock (season 4) – October 15

Fridays

  • Smallville (season 9) – September 25
  • Dollhouse (season 2) – September 25
  • Star Wars: The Clone Wars (season 2) – October 2

Midseason

  • 24 (season 8 ) – January 17, 2010
  • LOST (final season 6) – February 2010
  • Day One (season 1) – March 2010

What I’ll be missing (canceled shows)

  • Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles :(

So what are you watching?

The Jedi are fascists, the Sith are communists

Compare the following codes –

The Jedi Code

There is no emotion, there is peace.
There is no ignorance, there is knowledge.
There is no passion, there is serenity.
There is no chaos, there is harmony.
There is no death, there is the Force.

The Sith Code

Peace is a lie, there is only passion.
Through passion I gain strength.
Through strength I gain power.
Through power I gain victory.
Through victory, my chains are broken.
The Force shall free me.

No wonder the two sides never get along. George Lucas must be Republican. But then the Empire reminds me of the Nazis. My head hurts.

Postscript: Buddhism and Democracy

If my idealism causes me suffering, should I let go of it?

Buddhism is a wonderful philosophy but can be very limited in how it deals with politics. Either that, or I just haven’t found a way to reconcile the four noble truths with the democratic imperative to seek the best leader. Here’s my attempt.

All life is suffering. Expectation from desire is the root of suffering. To free ourselves from suffering we must renounce desire, and this can be achieved through the noble eight-fold path.

After writing my piece on Noynoy, I realize that I will never be satisfied with the current crop of ‘presidentiables’. Even my optimism for Panlilio was tempered by the harsh political realities. This obviously causes me suffering (somewhat) since I will forever be frustrated by Philippine politics. But here is the problem: to ease my ‘suffering’ the Buddha suggests that I let go of my desires — in other words, my ideals for a better country — and just let things be.

But is there no way to reconcile the Buddhist way of life and democracy?

This confounds me, since Siddhartha Gautama was, for the standards of his time, a protester. He ran against the doctrines of the Brahmin in order to make nirvana more equitable and attainable for all. He deconstructed the notion of the soul or self, and presumed that we human beings are fundamentally ‘self-less’ thus laying the groundwork for a doctrine of compassion.

The key point to remember about Buddhism is that any transformation or revolution comes from within. The abolition of the ego is central to the four noble truths, and it suggests that the change I seek cannot happen by asserting my will on others. I have standards about what good government should be, yet the I does not exist. Hence, I have nothing to assert with.

In real terms, I will forever be frustrated if I hold on to certain standards or beliefs and force or await for the world to conform around them. That will simply never happen, hence causing further frustration. Or worse, if they do happen then that will only feed my ego, leading me to believe that the world revolves around me. That can lead me to expect even more and hence I will never be satisfied.

Buddhism does not replace the ego, but through the eight-fold path, disciplines and keeps it in check. It is a science of mind that allows me to accept the world for what it is, while helping me discover my place in it. “Become the change you seek,” is a Buddhist imperative. In other words, in wanting a great president, I have to embody the values and positions of one. But does that mean I have to become one?

Not necessarily. I can embody the values and positions of my ideal president but without the egoistic expectation that I become one. If the Buddhist non-self can lead to compassion, in politics it can lead to citizenship.

Participating in the political process fits with the Buddhist notion of sacrificing our self for the greater good. In our world today, citizenship demands a lot — time, interest, the will to learn, and the courage to stand up for what we believe in. These are difficult to give since we have so many other things we want to do in this world, but if we truly care for our country then it will be easy to find the time and effort to fuller citizens. This just requires a lot of introspection and personal discernment, and hence true democracy in Buddhism can only start with the self.

Our Return to Aquinoland

The death of Cory Aquino and the recent commemoration of the death of Ninoy have given their only living son, Noynoy Aquino, a tremendous political boost. My reaction? God help us.

I have nothing against Noynoy Aquino.

What worries me is that this new wave of popularity may actually carry him to the Presidency, and hence throw us into the same loop we’ve been in for the past twenty something years.

People are asking for a repeat of the Cory administration and, with Noynoy, we may actually get it. His integrity will make him a ripe target for the political right and he will be paralyzed by the overwhelming expectations on him by the forever implacable left.

Expect to see coup d’etats bankrolled by the very businessmen and warlords who currently benefit from living in the world of Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo. On the other hand, Conrado de Quiros sings praises of him now, but give it a hundred days into the Aquino presidency. In his latest defense in Objections, de Quiros relishes in what is actually the fundamental problem: “I’m looking at Noynoy not for what he was but what he can be.”

Dear lord. (He endorsed Ed Panlilio too.) So what if he doesn’t measure up?

By rushing Noynoy to the pedestal, we are placing yet another mirror of our hopes and dreams. Public service and integrity in government are ideals and values, not an agenda for government. What issues does he actually stand for? What laws have he passed? How will he take on corruption? There are still so many unanswered questions.

I realize that our upcoming vote in the 2010 National Elections is essentially a moral vote. It will be nothing short of a rejection of Arroyo and a proclamation of our freedom from her Matrix. Our country still hungers for heroes, and in a large way I agree that change in our country can begin by electing leaders of utmost virtue and integrity.

I have trust in our voters to elect the right candidates. I am confident that with the proper information, there can be enough votes to overwhelm any attempt to defraud the elections.

I am fundamentally worried about two things:

  1. Whether the clamor for Noynoy translates into genuine citizenship and participation during his administration. The last thing I want is for us to simply rely on one person to fix everything. I feel that our country hasn’t gone beyond that yet, but I agree that change begins from the top. However –
  2. The political system, as it is, will eat Noynoy alive. For him to effectively put forward a reform agenda, it would help to have a critical mass of representatives and senators to think the way he does. For too long, political parties have been electoral coalitions; they’re designed to win votes and only votes. Instead, we need our parties to become effective governing coalitions to win the votes in the House and the Senate.

Otherwise, expect more of the same: a lameduck reform president, impeachment attempts by disgruntled and alienated trapos of yesteryear, and machinations to oust the incumbent through a coup d’etat.

I am inclined to watch out for true reform at the local level. It is where, in my opinion, true change can grow. We need more mayors and governors with their feet on the ground. Indeed, an Aquino presidency could possibly inspire such local officials, but that won’t be until three years into his presidency at least (and that is a long, long time in Philippine politics). Unfortunately, I don’t know much about local politics in places other than my own to surely say that “Change is coming.”

Change is hard. Change takes time. I’d like to see a great Philippine president in my lifetime and the sooner we make that happen, the better. I’m not ruling out the possibility that an Aquino presidency could be wonderful, but there are so many political realities to consider that it won’t hurt to slow down, think a little more straight, and yet cast a vote for him anyway.

I think he would be a good Vice-president, learning the ropes just in time to carry the Aquino name back to prominence in 2016.

The Outliers Aftermath

I am often reminded to read Malcolm Gladwell’s Outliers. Friends and students say that it is the book for me, but looking at its subtitle — The Story of Success — I wonder whether they’re pushing me to take bolder risks (read: succeed in whatever it is I’m trying to do) or simply suggesting that I’ll be amused in reading an author that reminds them of me. After reading it, I’d say it’s both.

The thesis of the book is nothing new. For us Filipinos, we have never really defined success based solely on our own efforts. We have long recognized how the factors of class, gender, age, and social networks factor into our success. Gladwell’s main argument is that success is also a social phenomenon — and this we already know. Perhaps, it’s novelty is in its genuine approach, its Mythbusters-like sensibility, and its laser-trained attack on America’s individualism and worship of the self-made man.

Nonetheless, I did pick up a thing or two.

I appreciated its debunking of the IQ myth. Educators have long agreed that IQ isn’t everything. It has never been a predictor of success, and Gladwell devotes two chapters to the importance of socialization and even socio-economic class in providing genuises with the right opportunities. He even goes on to say that for a roomful of genuises, a program for the gifted may be the last thing they need (since not all genuises are created equal).

Obviously, this reverberates with the work we’re doing in the PSHS where we, allegedly, hone and prepare the gifted for world-changing careers in the future. And yet, thanks to Gladwell, I have grown convinced that we’re training nothing but jacks of all trades yet masters of none. It has long been a sentiment among the faculty that there are better ways to nurture our gifted students, and this book only further reinforces that.

(As an aside, I am devoting renewed attention and interest in Educause. Check out their fabulous e-book, Educating the Net Generation, here.)

Another thing that caught my attention was his analysis of the role class (particularly the divide caused by having and knowing) plays in facilitating success. This has a lot of implications for public policy since it is true that those who can provide for their own opportunities will really encounter more opportunities, widening the gap between the upper and lower echelons of society. Powerful stuff here.

I would have loved for him to expand on his analysis about culture but I think I will rely on anthropologists from here. Gladwell always makes for nice, sleepy Sunday reading but his views are hardly unique and more scholarly equivalents do exist. But you can’t deny that he writes well, and that alone makes this a valuable read.

At the least it will make you rethink your path to success and whether you’re being too hard on yourself whenever you don’t make it. I agree with Gladwell that we need to open up as many opportunities to as many as people as possible, but I hope that doesn’t lead us to a false sense of complacency that the world will have to conspire with us first.

For if luck and prepartion equal opportunity, then we can make our own destiny.

Thanks to all those who asked me to read this.

Final rating: B

Falling Short: The World of Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo

It is Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo’s world, and we just happen to live in it.

It is almost unimaginable that at this time next year, our country will have a new president. To many, that cannot come any sooner. Even supporters of the President will have to concede that if she has been as honest and as effective as they say she is, then we can count on her turning over the presidency on the high noon of June 30, 2010.

But only if all of us, like Henry from The Time Traveler’s Wife, had a genetic disorder that drops us randomly through time. I bet a lot won’t mind flashing forward a year from now and forever losing the ability to jump. (Unless of course the eventual winner is Manny Villar. Then this movie will be punctuated by the Caparasian, “God help us!” But I digress.)

Our present is a state of perpetual exasperation. The recent spate of controversies over the past two weeks have been too ridiculous and petty, and yet commentaries in the media make it sound like a matter of high politics (that referring to real policy debates such as health care insurance reform in the United States). But the truth is, this administration is so unpopular that any issue, no matter how large or small, is magnified and scrutinized under an incredibly cynical lens. And I am not saying that it is our fault.

In shrugging off popular opinion polls and surveys, the administration has made it clear that they do not care for legitimacy. What they fail to realize is that in a democratic setup such as ours, they cannot afford to alienate the people — yet that is what they do. They have it the other way around. It isn’t that the President is so unpopular that she is not seen to be doing anything right; it is that she has hardly done anything right and this is why she is unpopular. Remember that she was lifted to power on the back of People Power. Where has that good will gone?

But note that I am not an advocate of populism, and this is widely different from what I mean by popularity. Politically speaking, being a populist is being at the disposal of the greatest majority. In a lot of ways, it can be incredibly responsive to the needs of the wider citizenry but it is not that equipped in handing issues of greater complexity and deeper nuance. Policies are often defined by immediacy and can shift on a whim. Populism does not lend well to planning and long-term thinking; to accomplish the latter will require the focus of experts but any attempts by an exclusive group to define policy can only be seen as elitism or even tyranny. I suppose that populism can work in more homogenous, nearly-egalitarian societies; but it is not sustainable in a developing nation such as ours where policy makers must be able to project and course-correct.

On the other hand, it is possible for a leader to move against populist sentiments and yet remain popular. The latter is a combination of more internal qualities such as charisma, political skills such as communication and compromise, and external factors such as public perception and image. Popular Presidents may not do exactly as you would want them to, but you will understand why. They will talk to you, make you see where they’re coming from, and make you appreciate why they see things the way they do. With enough skill they might even get you on board and convince you that you were mistaken. But before we proceed let’s all agree with one democratic axiom — Presidents, by virtue of their position, will have to act for the good of the majority.

Yet what a lot of presidents get wrong — and what ours hasn’t gotten right — is that good is a vague concept. It is a relative term that is defined by a plurality of political persuasions, religious views, and personal values. This is why so much is expected of a President. We vote them to power because they represent the persuasions, views, and values of the prevailing majority.

And here is where the problem lies. The fundamental quandary with Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo is that we never really elected her into office. When she assumed power in 2001, good was defined in terms of everything that wasn’t Erap. Filipinos, at that time, felt that the country simply can’t get any worse after electing an alleged moron into power (allegedly because the media has also been incredibly unfair to Erap). People Power 2 was nothing more than political masturbation. We just had to get it out of our system, consequences be damned.

Ultimately, we placed our trust in a president hoping that she would fix everything without clearly defining how to fix and what to fix. She was merely a mirror upon which we shone our hopes and dreams. But in reality, she began her administration with neither agenda nor coalition, receiving nothing more clearly from us than an imperative to just do better. And here is where we see her failing.

For despite the free pass we gave her into the Presidency, she hasn’t done anything to deserve it either. She could have spent her first four years building a true democratic coalition, reaching out to non-governmental organizations and the common people and bringing them into the democratic process. Only within the past year did the Supreme Courts widen the seats for for party list groups — what if she initiated this back in 2001? And yet she fell to the same trap that all Presidents did.

Our political left may be the louder and more vociferous ones, but it is the political right that has proven craftier and more dangerous. Legal threats to her legitimacy, calls for her impeachment, and phantom plans for coup d’etats were all quelled when she began to kowtow to the same political clans and interests that have benefited since even before Marcos. (This same political right intimidated Aquino, was co-opted by Ramos, and were threatened by the populist Estrada — hence People Power 2.) These same clans egg her to remain in power and conspire a Charter Change for that sole purpose. Furthermore, there is no surprise then that a financieer of one of her extravagant million-peso dinners is a Romualdez, a kinsman of Imelda Romualdez Marcos.

Hence, we are stuck with a President such as Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo — out of touch and trapped in a bubble. This is both of her own doing, and of the historical forces that simply overwhelmed her into the presidency. Greater men and women would have seen this battle coming and backed off the 2004 elections. Yet whether we attribute her flip flop and her government’s eventual decline to a weakness of character or the machinations of the darker political forces surrounding her, the conclusion is moot — the President has to go.

In the end, all these talks about the millions she overspent abroad and her meddling into the nomination of the National Artists reveal that her Presidency has betrayed elegance over extravagance and has lost substance over style. The chorus of many that the million pesos she spent on dinner could have been used to feed our hungry, says it all.

It is Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo’s world, and we just happen to live in it.

Becoming the change you seek (thoughts on AKSIS)

Whenever my colleagues see me staying after my shift ends at 12:30pm on a Tuesday, the first assumption is that I’m waiting for the number coding to end at 7pm. Actually, I could leave for home any time. But I stay for AKSIS.

This afternoon was the last of the AKSIS committee meetings I sat down in. There were three: AKSIS Act (AA) which oversees club activities in school, AKSIS Speak (AS) which takes charge of communications and advocacies, and AKSIS Lead (AL) which looks after the club’s internal activities and outreach engagements. We began last Tuesday, followed by Thursday, then finally today.

I went home from each meeting with an overwhelming sense of wonder, amazement, and hope. While each session began with the modest goal of going through the committee’s agenda for the year, the bulk of the time was spent discussing and exchanging ideas. I asked them to assess whether the activities we set respond to the organization’s goals. “If they do, how do we ensure they succeed; if they don’t, how do we make them work?”

Suffice to say, each session left us in a farther and better place than where we were when we began. We finally solved the Sigaw dilemma. Everyone seems onboard for our first interschool activity. And the discussions we had on the notion of outreach and social change were simply inspiring. (The very fruits of these discussions will be revealed in due time; I wouldn’t want my blog to spoil everything.)

As I write this in anticipation of the holiday tomorrow, I can’t help but take stock of how much AKSIS has grown in the past two years. I am personally very proud of my students. Truth be told, I hardly had an idea of what a social science club could do back in our first year. My challenge then was simply to “see what we can do” and that ended us up in everything from Bloggers’ Kapihan to the KKKwiz to Sitio Target. In the second year, we began narrowing down our activities. In effect, we built up the club as a true organization and we let her fly when Sigaw came around.

The past two years were a lot of hard work. Given the PSHS work load, committing oneself to a club is really unforgiving. A lot is demanded and there are hardly any (if any) academic rewards. Fulfillment here is really personal, especially with an adviser such as I who pushes everyone so damn hard. Yet I hope my leaders and the older members realize this now, that every push we made was simply us laying down the bricks and mortar and raising up the beams; so there is no surprise that we have the club we have now.

“Become the change you seek,” the good Mahatma said.

The students I work with in AKSIS convinced me that the youth today are not apathetic. Chances are, they just care too damn much that the inability to effect the change they seek can be so profoundly frustrating and hence they give up. But they do care. Perhaps they may not care for the same causes you do or can’t articulate issues the same way you do, but they have their own values just like you do. What can be frustrating is that a lot feel that we live in a system that, at best, does not help us succeed or, at worst, is simply set up for us to fail. Yet I’ve seen that given the right reasons, the right inspiration, and the right opportunities, the youth will make themselves heard. They will speak. They will act. They will lead.

Perhaps the reason why I push my AKSIS members so hard is because when it comes to affecting change in society, nobody expects them to do much of anything really. They’re just kids, skeptics say, but that’s not true. They’re Filipinos too. They’re citizens. They’re the future. Perpetuating the belief that they should just keep to their books and get good grades is exactly what feeds this cycle of so-called apathy. Getting through school is the least they should do; hence, there can always be so much more.

“If you build it, they will come,” paraphrasing The Field of Dreams.

When I first conceived AKSIS more than two years ago, I saw an organization that bridged the sciences and the humanities. Students were thinking too compartmentally and could not easily connect the sciences they learn with the larger society that awaits their service. AKSIS is not that organization yet, but it may no longer matter if it becomes that or not. Students have now called it their home. AKSIS has become a statement of their passion for change and a means for them to make a difference.

My role as their adviser is to empower them to be the organization they want to be. They are already starting to overtake my own ambitiousness and uncompromising determination; the agenda they’ve set for the year is a demanding yet potentially very fulfilling one. When they asked me which one activity I would want to see succeed above all I replied, “whichever you want to see succeed above all.” Furthermore, “My only goal as your adviser is to help you succeed and end the year feeling that you’ve done something really worth your time.”

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At one point in the discussion awhile ago, one of the leaders expressed his disappointment in Philippine society at large. He feels that a lot of our problems are rooted in culture, and that true genuine change will require a complete overhaul of sorts. He has grown frustrated at feeling that in a rushing crowd, he is the only one who feels that we can all get to where we’re going if we just keep to our lines and not push around. He then wonders why doing the right thing in this country can leave you feeling isolated, alienated, and alone.

I agree. “We are a democracy, yet it’s so hard to tell the truth.”

I caution him that from a social science perspective, institutional change really takes time. Culture has many moving parts and progress can be really slow. This is why some people espouse for a violent, brutal overthrow of the current regime. But for those who choose a more tempered path, change really begins from within. We hope that through the power of example and decisive and principled leadership, we will have better days. So which do you choose?

He heaves a heavy breath. Then, sigh.

You are not alone now. Welcome home.